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For years I felt like I lost myself somewhere along the way. I didn’t know who I was anymore. I no longer knew what I liked or what I wanted to be. It was almost like all I knew about myself was a shadow from a bright girl I once was. I had forgotten what a good genuine laughter felt like. But I can’t blame myself because all the way I always thought I was choosing the right path, but again and again I ended up in the same place where I couldn’t recognise myself. This long journey revealed me a pattern: every time I lost myself was because I was willing to not be myself in order to please somebody else. This was one of the greatest discoveries for me, and now I finally realise: I gotta protect myself. Protect that bright girl that is still here, and I am bringing her out again. Going anywhere, being with anyone or achieving anything means nothing if I haven’t got my real self there with me. If my real self is not enough, I’ll just walk away and keep looking for a place where I am… It’s been a long journey of highs and lows, but every high and every low is important in the process of discovering what really matters.

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